Ah ..Last sunday I had SSC mains exam 2013 (Re- exam) , hoping to get my name in interview call . it gives me immense satisfaction that I did well in my main exam , more than I used to expect . though my well(satisfaction) level may not be sufficient to get a gud job but i'm the person who get satisfied very easily , don't know why I have this kind of attitude . I know many people who were average or below average during school days and they are scoring 60-70 marks more than me but still not satisfied .
I confess that I have this jealous nature and this is the main reason of my downfall in present and future also . I see people around me who were no that gud enough to join army , navy or any reputed government job but now they are all there and i'm sitting at home in the same room and same chair which I used to sit in my 10th standard. I know I should not judge others but yes it's true they are not that gud enough .
one can see my pessimism , that even after performing well in my mains exam i'm more concerned about others . I don't know how to end these thoughts . I don't even realize how world has changed around me and even today after seeing these i'm not giving my 100% , which really concern me . I lack this perseverance characterstics , ek aag jo mujhe jalaae rakhe . ...Bholenath please help ..give me some enlightenment that I could fulfil my father's dream . now every time I see my father I rarely make eye contact with him ..why me and you(bholenath) giving pain to the greatest man of this world . I want nothing in my life just to give that momentary happiness that his son's name is in UPSC list . God you are free after that .
vinay ke liye bhi dukhi huin .. as he was preparing for civil from the beginning of this year and lost practice of maths ..not able to perform to his expected level .
Now both of has to start preparing for SSC CGL-14 , which is going to be held on the 19th of next month . Kuchh bhi ho jaye iss baar ssc ka topper bann na h ..bahut ho gay a,..enough is enough ..
Now the time has come that people should know Mahipal ka ladka competition main utra h .
MISSION 172 . in pre started .
SI pre ka bhi result aa gaya , as expected awarded 0 marks . JEEVAN mein ek baar SI jaroor lagna h ..koi baat nahi nxt year pakka...
I confess that I have this jealous nature and this is the main reason of my downfall in present and future also . I see people around me who were no that gud enough to join army , navy or any reputed government job but now they are all there and i'm sitting at home in the same room and same chair which I used to sit in my 10th standard. I know I should not judge others but yes it's true they are not that gud enough .
one can see my pessimism , that even after performing well in my mains exam i'm more concerned about others . I don't know how to end these thoughts . I don't even realize how world has changed around me and even today after seeing these i'm not giving my 100% , which really concern me . I lack this perseverance characterstics , ek aag jo mujhe jalaae rakhe . ...Bholenath please help ..give me some enlightenment that I could fulfil my father's dream . now every time I see my father I rarely make eye contact with him ..why me and you(bholenath) giving pain to the greatest man of this world . I want nothing in my life just to give that momentary happiness that his son's name is in UPSC list . God you are free after that .
vinay ke liye bhi dukhi huin .. as he was preparing for civil from the beginning of this year and lost practice of maths ..not able to perform to his expected level .
Now both of has to start preparing for SSC CGL-14 , which is going to be held on the 19th of next month . Kuchh bhi ho jaye iss baar ssc ka topper bann na h ..bahut ho gay a,..enough is enough ..
Now the time has come that people should know Mahipal ka ladka competition main utra h .
MISSION 172 . in pre started .
SI pre ka bhi result aa gaya , as expected awarded 0 marks . JEEVAN mein ek baar SI jaroor lagna h ..koi baat nahi nxt year pakka...
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