ah ..after a long long time writing this ..yes went through an extreme dull period , really ye vo phase h jisme kuchh bhi karne ki ichha nahi ho rahi ..main chah kr bhi nahi padh pa raha huin ...shayad isliye ki kuchh na kuchh andar disturbance h ...first I thought I would write blog after getting selected in CGL but now emanciating myself frm negative energy and thoughts that's why writing now .
So summarising what had happened during last 2 months .
1) not able to accomplish mission 172 bcz exam was tough especially English section and my silly mistakes even makes it worse ...why I make so much mistakes in exam ...what I concluded is that I have this exam phobia taking lot of pressure on my weak HEART.
2) then on 29th oct ..RESULT was out of CGL 2013 , what a day it was nt day but at late night , can't explain that feeling my hands were really trembling while opening the site of SSC and then while searching my name in interview PDF makes things even worse yes I remember how my throat was chocked , how my hear was beating and after all this filmy emotional scene which ended in sad ending ...."my name was not there in the list " bcz of devastating cut off 424.50 .(what I and all other social networking people including neetu singh were expecting around 405 -410 and my expected score according answer keys of ssc and paramount was around 418-420)
Really all my hopes got vanished , bunch of thoughts came into my mind but the most prominent was that HOW LONG MY FATHER AND MY MOTHER WOULD WAIT FOR GOOD NEWS .
I have wasted there one more year .My brother , future IPS was studying in the next room I went to him and told this sad news and at that time I even forgot that there should be one more list for those candidates who had qualified for NON INTERVIEW post . He was having sympathy for me bcz cut off had increased around 75 marks from what it was in 2012 . Then I told him that my name should be there in non interview post .
Then I start searching 2-3 more pdfs which were uploaded by SSC but still my heart and my mind were not in proper place ...conclusion not able to see my name in any of the lists which were there
Then we both went to sleep but I was not able to sleep after a long time I was crying , cursing myself for this result bcz I had searched few name which were known to me and they were there ...ENVY
after an hour I stood out of my bed and start searching each PDF again ..AH at last my name was there in NON interview list ...oh god what a relief
3)After the result I could see the pain of my friend VINAY , after few days of the result he stopped speaking to me and the reason was well known to me ...really I haven't expect this kind of behaviour from him but WAQT balwan h ..WAQT ka har SHEH gulam....but he should also realize that for the last few months he was preparing for CIVIL services and SSC demands practice of both math and English.
KOI nahi ek aur dost gaya ...ab koi nahi h ...sab mujhe 1-2 dhoka de chuke h sirf ek ko chhodh k BISHT..Ye vo daur h jo main kabhi nahi bhoolunga ...
4)TWIST ...hahhahaha..what a twist it was ...SSC lowers down the interview cut off to 420 and my name find the place where I wanted ...thanks god ....thank u bholenath..tu ne mere PAPA ki izzat rakh li
5)LEKIN main ab bhi nahi padh raha huin ....aaj CHOTU ki behen ki sagai h aur DEOL ki bhi ...aaj chotu aur BISHT se milke aata huin ...ye mere vo 2 dost h jinko m ain college time apne chakkro main phasana nahi chahta tha ..BISHT aisa dost jo meri khushi m mujhse jyada khush hota h ...kal se padhai start krta huin .....lekin aaj kal ye bhi problem ho rahi h dimag blank sa ho raha h...
6) Jogging karte time shin pain fir start ho gaya ye vo dard h jo mere aur delhi police SI k beech rukawat paida kr sakta h...
7)USKI ki pic aaj bhi FB pr dekh leta huin ..
So summarising what had happened during last 2 months .
1) not able to accomplish mission 172 bcz exam was tough especially English section and my silly mistakes even makes it worse ...why I make so much mistakes in exam ...what I concluded is that I have this exam phobia taking lot of pressure on my weak HEART.
2) then on 29th oct ..RESULT was out of CGL 2013 , what a day it was nt day but at late night , can't explain that feeling my hands were really trembling while opening the site of SSC and then while searching my name in interview PDF makes things even worse yes I remember how my throat was chocked , how my hear was beating and after all this filmy emotional scene which ended in sad ending ...."my name was not there in the list " bcz of devastating cut off 424.50 .(what I and all other social networking people including neetu singh were expecting around 405 -410 and my expected score according answer keys of ssc and paramount was around 418-420)
Really all my hopes got vanished , bunch of thoughts came into my mind but the most prominent was that HOW LONG MY FATHER AND MY MOTHER WOULD WAIT FOR GOOD NEWS .
I have wasted there one more year .My brother , future IPS was studying in the next room I went to him and told this sad news and at that time I even forgot that there should be one more list for those candidates who had qualified for NON INTERVIEW post . He was having sympathy for me bcz cut off had increased around 75 marks from what it was in 2012 . Then I told him that my name should be there in non interview post .
Then I start searching 2-3 more pdfs which were uploaded by SSC but still my heart and my mind were not in proper place ...conclusion not able to see my name in any of the lists which were there
Then we both went to sleep but I was not able to sleep after a long time I was crying , cursing myself for this result bcz I had searched few name which were known to me and they were there ...ENVY
after an hour I stood out of my bed and start searching each PDF again ..AH at last my name was there in NON interview list ...oh god what a relief
3)After the result I could see the pain of my friend VINAY , after few days of the result he stopped speaking to me and the reason was well known to me ...really I haven't expect this kind of behaviour from him but WAQT balwan h ..WAQT ka har SHEH gulam....but he should also realize that for the last few months he was preparing for CIVIL services and SSC demands practice of both math and English.
KOI nahi ek aur dost gaya ...ab koi nahi h ...sab mujhe 1-2 dhoka de chuke h sirf ek ko chhodh k BISHT..Ye vo daur h jo main kabhi nahi bhoolunga ...
4)TWIST ...hahhahaha..what a twist it was ...SSC lowers down the interview cut off to 420 and my name find the place where I wanted ...thanks god ....thank u bholenath..tu ne mere PAPA ki izzat rakh li
5)LEKIN main ab bhi nahi padh raha huin ....aaj CHOTU ki behen ki sagai h aur DEOL ki bhi ...aaj chotu aur BISHT se milke aata huin ...ye mere vo 2 dost h jinko m ain college time apne chakkro main phasana nahi chahta tha ..BISHT aisa dost jo meri khushi m mujhse jyada khush hota h ...kal se padhai start krta huin .....lekin aaj kal ye bhi problem ho rahi h dimag blank sa ho raha h...
6) Jogging karte time shin pain fir start ho gaya ye vo dard h jo mere aur delhi police SI k beech rukawat paida kr sakta h...
7)USKI ki pic aaj bhi FB pr dekh leta huin ..
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